Creating new habits is really difficult.
Not only talking about working on this site, but also things like training, studying. Removing bad habits is also just as difficult, if not more so.
Life is just so difficult in general, and everyone has too do this shit. And it feels like nobody recognizes this, that it all people have to go trough this chore. Some people do have it easier (i sure am one of them), but that doesn’t mean it is easy.
I don’t want it to end, but gosh darn I wish it was a bit easier.
On some level I can recognize that the difficulty brings some meaning to life. To grab a hold of things by working hard, that you know and feel you deserve. Logically I also know this is bullshit; some people where born into situations where they can work their ass off and get nothing, while others got everything they could ever ask for as a birthright.
I am lucky in a lot of ways.