This is basically a notification to inform you that I would not hold it agaisnt you if you chose to use AI or other translation software to be able to read some of my work.

I don’t like AI as a concept, in fact I believe it is quite the shitty thing, but I also want people to be able to read my stuff. Not that I think a lot of people will be going to put much effort to read my stuff, but just in case.

Just be aware that AI is very unlikely to be able to capture everything as I intended it.

Some views I have on existance.

Warning: This section includes attempts at philosophical reasoning by someone who has neither education nor any other form of qualification for doing so. I am a larper I am a larper I am a larper I am a larper I am a larper¹.

I would generally categorize how I have seen existance talked about in three different ways²:

1. Existance as a property (first order theory)
2. Existance as separate³ (second order theory)
3. Existance as fundamental (zeroeth order theory⁴)

Personally I don’t like camp 1, as property implies it can be distinguished from other things. All things that are do have the property existing, and as such there is no differentiation that can be made. Most⁵ modern philosophers also dislikes this view, although for more sophisticated reasons.

I believe camp 2 is more accurate, where existance is its own thing. The reason I believe this is more accurate is that ‘existance’ seems separate in every way from other attributes; a red ball can be concieved as not red, but an existing ball cannot be concieved as not existing without imagining nothing. Saying something doesn’t exist is saying it isn’t a part of reality, not a claim about the object itself.⁶

Camp 3 might stick out to you⁷, which isn’t all that suprising: calling something as fundamental as existance illogical seems illogical in and of itself.

The reasoning behind this is the simple fact that everything that is, exists. In simpler terms: “if it exists, it must exist”. This means that everything that does exist, exists. A claim about the existance of something isn’t a claim, since that something must exist.

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Everything we referr to is part of a reality. And that is what existance is, it is the canvas upon which objects are painted, if you allow me to be poetic.

The immediate counter to this is “What about Santa Claus, does he exist?” The answer to this is of course no, but I would make the claim that when you thought about eaunta Claus you weren’t thinking of him, instead picturing the abstract concept of him you have in your mind (and that concept does exist).

So yeah, this is my probably badly reasoned take on existance. Please be nice to be.

Note: This view comes from myself, although I am certain many others have held this before. My way of arriving here is trough materialist reasoning, I would call myself a materialist. While I do think my arguments are somewhat coherent, my way of arriving at the stance started from thinking of how why we define existence in the first place.

Today I have been tired; I wake up with the sun.

I really don’t know what to do when I am this tired. It feels almost painful in some ways. But it is equally cozy in a strange way. I feel like I could close my eyes and get some rest.

Now as summer starts to come I cannot sleep with my curtains open. During winter and fall I slept peacefully in my bed, watching the lamppost glow from outside. But now as spring falls through and summer arrives, the sun wakes me up when I leave my curtains open.

On some level I think aestheticise being tired. But I do truly think it is beautiful.

Something I often grumble on is existence. It is, and must be, in some way. But it seems to be impossible for there to be any truly logical reason for its existence. To me the only rational stance seems to be that it is a miracle, for both meanings of the world.

Despite it all the sun still lights up my bedroom and wakes me in the morning, all the days i forget to close the curtains in summer.

i love this all

I do really enjoy reading all kinds of things!

Fiction, non-fiction. Manga, novels, poetry, rants. Reading is simply lovely.

One things that really gets me excited for reading is emotion. Happiness, sadness, anger. I am so fascinated by the ability of some authors’ ability to make me feel these things. Some day I wish that I too can become good enough for that.

The reason I am thinking about this today is that I recently finished a manga by the name of “The summer you where there” (wiki, mal).

It is very good, and if you enjoy romance I can really recommend it.

When I finished the story I cried just a teensy little bit…

okay no i cried a bunch. it was very sad very good yes i am happy good art,fiction,literature yes :thumbsup:

Creating new habits is really difficult.

Not only talking about working on this site, but also things like training, studying. Removing bad habits is also just as difficult, if not more so.

Life is just so difficult in general, and everyone has too do this shit. And it feels like nobody recognizes this, that it all people have to go trough this chore. Some people do have it easier (i sure am one of them), but that doesn’t mean it is easy.

I don’t want it to end, but gosh darn I wish it was a bit easier.

On some level I can recognize that the difficulty brings some meaning to life. To grab a hold of things by working hard, that you know and feel you deserve. Logically I also know this is bullshit; some people where born into situations where they can work their ass off and get nothing, while others got everything they could ever ask for as a birthright.

I am lucky in a lot of ways.

i added some of my older, and more recent, stories to the site.

the stories are “Aphelium vaknar”, “Fru Tur och Herr Ordning” and “Serving the Corporation”.

there are possibly some grammatical mistakes, as i haven’t looked them over for those things, but i think it is fine anyways.

today i set up the site.

i have had this URL for a while, but wanted to try a new style and also i removed everything i had before. currently it is extremely minimal, and i think i will keep it that way.

this is a symptom of a greater problem i have where i can’t really stay on a single project for too long. don’t think that will change but i do try; it isn’t really something i want.